I still can't believe that 2009 is over!
It was a whirlwind year that went so fast, with ups and down and so many surprises.
I started college online, went to a foreign country, got my first puppy, got my drivers license (finally!), started up a girls bible study with another lady, and did too many other things to even begin to list. It was a year of immense growth, and towards the end, one of pain and dealing with things I wasn't used to. My emotions were on a constant roller coaster, my optimism won out more often than usual, and I overcame fears I didn't plan on overcoming anytime soon.
It's amazing to look back on a year and see how far you have come as a person. On January 1st, 2009, I would not have been able to fathom what would take place is those next 365 days. I've seen God's hand on my life so much this year, and even in the midst of that I have had those moments of trying to do things myself. You would think that after dealing with things time and time again, you would better learn how to handle or move on from it, but I have realized that life is a constant act of surrendering all to God. I myself cannot handle everything, that is a fact. I need Him to help me, to guide me, and to carry me through life. I don't get why I even pretend from time to time that I fully KNOW what I'm doing.
I have also learned that in our hurt we need to run to God, we cannot just sit there and try heal ourselves. It won't work. These kinds of lessons are always learned the hard way, but I think they are essential to learn. I'm learning the hard times in life are so important to our strength of character and to our faith. I'm also learning that I am a much weaker person than I previously thought. I would never think of myself as a prideful person, but I must be, for my reaction in bad times is 'alright, I can do this....somehow, and if I can't, I guess I'll just sit here' when I should instead be like 'GOD! Help me, my weak flesh cannot do this, I NEED YOU!'
Why is it so hard to admit to God we NEED Him?
Anyways...
2009 was an amazing year full of so many triumphs and trials thrown in between, but I fully know that God WAS and IS in control. How awesome!
2 comments:
Great post. So true!
Somehow i read you looking forward post and missed this one and a few under it! Oops! It has been a huge year for you - so exciting to see the growth and watch all the changes taking place. Our need for constant reliance on God is so true and so easily forgotten. Great to learn this lesson at your age - unfortunately I was much older :-)
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